One of those nights that you wake up and cant get back to sleep. Pondering on every little thing, every tear, every emotion & every time you woke up to think about the same thing. When not one thing can seem to make you smile AT ALL. regretting the life i have lived every decision was a mistake & thinking what if i did this, said that but i don’t think i have done anything that is ever good enough. i always end up hurting someone else because i’m nothing. my head is a prison for thoughts that are never going to leave no matter what.
Feeling like your heart is just black, pouring into your body is just blood filled with love, hate, guilt, regret, misfortune & hopelessness. at such a young age iv had so many hurtful experiences and i never want anyone to go through what i have been through thats why i help so many people just want everyone to be happy around me and not worry about me. amazing people are judged everyday and they get upset i wanna show them not to worry & just smile. i dont even know what im writing right now its just emotions coming out. i hate me. wish people would just distance themselves from me before i fuck there lives up to. im sorry for the past present & future.